Last night, I performed a prophetic act of worship...by posting scriptures.. Gods promises all over my room. I made a decision that this year, I will know the Word God and I will believe it with all of my heart.In the midst of me, writing and copying down scriptures my spirit man began to leap. As I was posting the construction paper on my walls, I felt a sudden closeness to Gods Word.. as I read the scriptues out loud.. more scriputres came to my spirit..and I continued to write and post. When I look at my walls now, I feel even closer to my Heavenly Father..its as if He is speaking right to me.
I layed my head down to sleep, that evening excited about my prophetic act of obedience, toward Gods word and promises. I woke up about 12, to hear my sisters still awake, downstairs watching tv. Just to fill you in, I have a very sensitive ear... If I am unable to sleep due to sound.. I get a little irritated. So I demanded that my sisters turn down the tv. my sister sent me a special text saying "If you would stop concentrating on the sound, you would fall asleep". Her text made complete sense, I needed to stop focusing on the sound, or whats irritating me.. and think on.. something positive.. like the scriptures that are in my room..and His presence :) But after I got that text, I decided to go upstairs to sleep until they stopped talking.. and to calm myself down..I even thought..why am I getting so worked up!
As I layed upstairs, I could barely sleep..it was as if the enemy was harassing me.. giving me thoughts "Aneurysm, your going to die, everything you did a few hours ago.. is obsolete". I continued to cast the enemy down..refusing to believe his lies.. and at the same time wondering.. "Lord why am I being attacked.. right after I did a prophetic act of obedience? Shouldnt everything be "peachy" right now?" After about an hour, I went back into my room downstairs and layed down. As I began to sleep I woke up..I had a dream that I had opened the "door" to a room and "air" was coming out. It was as if, I was airing out a room..allowing the freshness of Gods Holy Spirit to clean out my life!
When I woke up in the morning to go to work, the enemy was still speaking words of negativity into my mind, I continued to cast it down. Knowing that I have to press on,knowing that the Lord has not forgotten about me or forsaken me. As I continued to press on, and focus on the Lord and His joy that's been made available unto me.. I began to get encouraged. Nothing can go wrong, the enemy has no grasp on my life or my families life when I am holding unto the Word of God.
I choose to believe that He has given me the tools to be successful, and to not be tossed too and fro by my emotions..
Psalms 119:105
Your word is a lamp for my feet,
a light on my path.
I know that He will guide my way, He is with me and will never forsake me..
Be encouraged and know, that He will vindicate his people.. you will not be ashamed.
For the sheer fact that I randomly stumbled upon your blog out of curiosity and insomnia shows u that love moves when u don't see it. Im glad to see that your passion for god has grown and gotten stronger over these past years.
ReplyDelete-Malcolm
Malcolm,
ReplyDeleteI appreciate your response, and Im grateful for your curiosity. Its truly by His grace and mercy that Im standing here today. Be encouraged, and continue to keep your heart open.