HOPE

My heart is leaping with so much joy and understanding.. truly everything that is good and pure comes from God. This past weekend, I was emotionally drained and moving towards depression.I was angry and frustrated..I had not felt this way for the longest time..especially since this year began. I had made a decleration that this year I was not going to hold back.. that no circumstance negative or bad would take me captive.
People would ask me "why are you so positive? Its okay to be "real" sometimes.." Well, Ive come to decision that I rather speak faith.. or meditate on what is good..keeping my faith ignited.. despite what I see. Last weekend that decleration was challenged. For literaly three days.. I was super sensitive, angry.. emotional.. a wreck! I rememeber speaking to my younger sister.. expressing my frustration.. she encouraged me to press on.. and to continue my walk..knowing that its normal to feel drained..but ddont give up. When my mom came home, she was talking with me.. and I just started crying.. she said "Tasha, its okay to cry..you wineskin is just being stretched. See what you need to change.. how you need to respond. The only bad thing that could come out of this moment in your life.. is for you to JUSTIFY the way you are feeling by making up excuses.. and not changing". When she was saying that.. I didnt want to hear it.. I wanted to cry.. I wanted someone to hold me..and give me what I felt I needed at that very moment.

In the midst of my emotion, I knew that God was still speaking to me.. He was holding me.. just in a different way.. He wanted His little girl to grow up..He wanted to challenge me.. :) Well that Sunday.. I went to church.. and Dr. Henry Wolmarans my awesome pastor.. taught on "The Power of Hope" When we cry out to God saying.. "I want more of You Lord".. we sometimes dont want exactly what He gives us..He shows us a better way.. exposes light on the dark areas in our life.. and desires for us to work with Him to bring.. restoration to that area. But if we ignore it, or say "thats not God" it doesnt look like what I asked.. Him. If we respond in that fashion.. not trusting Him.. we can lose out.. we can lose or Joy. their is joy in serving Him.. their is joy in loving Him! The enemy loves to play with our emotions.. and His focus is to attack our FAITH...our hope..he wants to deprive us of hope... like the Lord forsake us! I had felt that way.. the majority of the weekend..It was as if God.. grabbed me.. and said.. "NO, IM NOT LOSING YOU".. the Holy Spirit gave Dr. Henry Wolmarans an awesome word..to not give up.. that we are at the end.. of a breakthrough..Ahh.. I held on.. and on the other side was peace, joy, hope and wisdom.


Now, this evening.. the Lord has broken into my heart once again.. and revealed His love to me..He is so authentic.. He knows how to break into each one of hearts.. to give us what we need.


Hold on.. to hope..Hold onto faith..



Hebrews 11:1 "Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen"

Truth

You cant sugarcoat everything, especially the realities of life. The life we live are under constant review and scrutiny from those who do not understand the meaning of forgiveness and redemption. Everyday that I wake up is a blessing from God. My life does not belong to me, I was bought with a price. The only one I owe an explanation to at the end of my life is my Heavenly Father. Therefore what He puts in my heart, and spirit comes first.. before my desires. What He wants me to do..takes precedence. Im learning this.. as Im making a conscious decision to serve Him. I know there is more.. there has to be more than the life we are living. What we do here on earth..matters in eternity.

If we truly tap into his presence.. and ask Him to reveal His mysteries.. we will be in awe..His anointing and love gives you and I hope..we are not living our lives in vain. That is truth.. it will never change.

The Other Alternative Luncheon

Yesterday afternoon, February 5, 2011. RomanceMe Ministries had the privelage of attending a luncheon that Whittier Pregnancy Care Clinic was hosting. During the luncheon,I had the oppurtunity to sit and talk with some of the staff. The head Nurse Manager from the Clinic, ministered on "Sexuality" and how it is effecting our youth and young adults. My eyes were opened to a lot of things, both natural and spiritual. As a body, we need to encourage and strengthen are young women to appreciate their physical bodies as well as their spiritual bodies.As we begin to bring awareness to our children, they will begin to see that their is another way..a better way to live their lives..that will glorify their Heavenly Father. We do not belong to ourselves.. we were bought with a price 1 Corinthians 6:20. I believe that there is power, in knowing who we are, and whose we are!!! We all belong to a mighty God who wants us, to be loved..and cared for. Im excited to see how God will continue to use the Whittier Pregnancy Care Clinic. The event was amazing..

Passion

I am a very passionate person, if my heart is not in it.. Im usually not all the way there. When I talk about my family, God and my dreams.. I instantly fall in love with the heart of the matter as Im sharing revelations, accomplishments and future goals. Im finding that God desires us to be passionate about Him and his Kingdom as well. For us to be excited about sharing his love and reading His word with others. Their is joy in laying down our lives, and giving everything to him. He is the reason that you and I are here. He is the reason why we have what we have, every good and perfect thing comes from Him.

The middle of this week, I was feeling deprived and dry.. my heart was longing for communion with Love..my passion. I had to make a conscious decision to forget what happened to me during the week.. and focus and meditate on Gods unfailing love and mercy. He wants to commune with us on a regular basis. He wants us to give Him our fears and worries...and replace it with joy and peace. He suffered on the cross, so that you and I can walk in his EXTREME and RADICAL love :)

Its time to get your peace back.. its time to get your joy back!! It belongs to you, it is your portion. In Him their is nothing missing or broken. Walk in wholeness.

Be encouraged this morning, to live a passionate life. Knowing that everyday is a blessing..